where I have been......where I am going.
It has been way too long since I have sat and written about life.
Life has a funny way of just continuing, even if you haven't paused to recount what has happened.
What has happened since I last wrote.
A world of things have happened.
I stopped writing on the realization that I was living a lie.
The life I was living was not what I believed it was.
I've moved past that.
Since that time, Rick was laid off. For a year. For a year I carried us all.
I dealt with his depression, his thoughts of failure and tried all I could to lift him up.
I went back to work for benefits. Making less money than I was making with my home-based business. but at least I had the safety-net of benefits.
That was a good thing, as while we were under Cobra, Emma Sage got sick. What I thought as just a rash and a virus, turned into a nightmare, with her being admitted to Goyeb Children's Hospital and the thoughts she had Leukemia.
Yes, that scary, big word that all parents of a child with Down syndrome fear. Leukemia.
After a week of being on pins and needles, a bone-marrow aspiration. A few immature blasts. It turns out that it was a unknown virus. We were spared this round.
But it meant that as soon as Cobra ran out, if he was not gainfully employed with benefits, I would have to venture out of my safe-haven and get a job with benefits.
He worked contract. He made more money contracting than he did with his permanent full-time job.
For that I give thanks.
I went back to work for benefits.
I am still working.
Rick got a job with benefits....in New Hampshire.
It meant uprooting the family.
With two in college and Otto just about to start high school......
I realized that what was wrong, so terribly wrong in my relationship had not changed.
I wasn't going to move.
I kept my job with benefits and Rick moved to New Hampshire.